RELEASE 11/21/2025
There’s a certain weight that comes with always being the “almost.”
And that line – “It's just not your time” – was a statement that was spoken to me about 7 years ago from an old news director at a local TV station I worked for. I really wanted to be a reporter on live television but he – along with many others at the time – didn't believe I could do it.
That eventually had me spiral into depression.
This wasn't just one time though – I had reached a breaking point in life that I was tired of never being good enough - let alone not even fitting in anywhere it seemed.
Not quite first call, not the one people choose right away, the last minute thought of an invite - the reliable one who shows up anyway.
I’ve felt that in love, in friendships, my professional career, and even in music.
It took me a long time to realize it's not because I wasn’t enough – but because I kept trying to be.
Second Best started with a few lines a local songwriter once shared with me (Steve Rosenthal of Spur Crazy in Reno, NV), and it slowly became my own story - about self-worth, closure, and learning when it’s time to let go.
Can't tell if I'm runnin' or just behind
Second best or it's just not my time
I’ve realized I don’t need to be anyone’s “number one” to matter.
Sometimes peace comes from knowing who you are - even when no one’s clapping for you.
It’s not about winning; it’s about finding stillness, honesty, and a sense of self that doesn’t need approval to exist.
This song isn’t meant to be a banger or a hit - rather, it's a release. It's reflectioin, choosing myself, and finding peace, and walking away from people and places where I'm not welcomed at a table.
"Never look back on this” became my promise to myself.